“The human body’s reaction to love are pupil dilation, sweaty palms, and increased heart rate. These are the same responses that the body gives off when experiencing deep fear.”
That is why I cannot say I love you, as the fear of falling for you is getting to me more.

Digging my nonexistent nails deep into the palm of my hands, I was struggling immensely trying to hold back my urge to grab hold of you. Inches away, there you sat, I wanted nothing more than putting my arms around you and never let go. I questioned myself why, though I already knew the answer - you could take me to a whole new world.

Where the sun radiantly shines, the rain gracefully falls, where everybody laughed, nobody cried, where you would hold onto me tight, through day and night. In your arms I know I will be safe. Holding your hand, I know I will be happy. Having you in my life, I know it will all feel complete… My train of thoughts was interrupted as I realised you have gotten up to stand in the middle of the room. The next thing I knew I was staring into your eyes. That complex gaze, there is nothing I hate more, as those dark brown eyes does not give a thing away.

I do not dream, nor do I hold optimistic thoughts. I am a realist, and that is why I’m begging you to stop. Those pats on the back, taps on the head, the moments where your skin touches mine, I simply cannot handle. They send chills down my spine, before I know it butterflies are fluttering, my heartbeat races, as my head begins to spin. I plead for the day you decide to open up, yea or nay baby, I just need your answer. Stop being so cruel, you know how I feel, how extruciatingly I’m waiting, how utterly confused I am about the future, and the past. Pull me out of my misery - leave, or stay?